Happy DeepaRaya!!!

I would like to wish all Malaysians Happy Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya!!!

The grass is NOT greener on the other side......

Went to Tesco. I’ve been grocery shopping for these past few days. I bought so much food that it’ll prolly last me a month or so. And I bought chocolate. I’m kinda frustrated now, and two of my stress busters are shopping (even if it’s for groceries) and chocolate (be it bars, cookies or mousse). Last Sunday, I made roast chicken and pasta with bolognese sauce. The chicken wasn’t that bad, so I decided to roast some more chicken today. Just finished a piece. Went to St Albans on Saturday, alone, by bus. I wanted to be adventurous. That’s about as adventurous as I’ll be for now. I’m slowly settling, adjusting and accepting life here. When I was back home, I’ve always wished I was somewhere else, I felt like I was drowning. I wanted to go overseas, live there. Now that I get the chance to, it’s not as nice as I thought. I mean I appreciate the fact that I’m fortunate enough to have the opportunity to further my studies overseas, but there’s still NO place like home. It’s not like I’m utterly homesick or whatever (thanks to web video calling), I mean I can deal with having to walk and to use public transport, but there’s so much going on back home that I feel I’m missing out on. I guess I’m just stressed out about school and life and stuff. And I tend to get irritable. That’s why I’m fully stocked with chocolate. The grass always seemed greener on the other side, but now that I’m on the other side it’s not greener at all. It kinda seems like the previous side is greener. I guess it’s some “optical illusion” of the human mind. I totally didn’t plan on coming here. My mum suggested that I try applying for UK even though we weren’t really planning to go for it. I asked about it at the Uni placement department at Inti. I was told about the procedures and they seemed troublesome for something that I’m not really going for, so I didn’t bother about it and I missed the application deadline. And later someone told me about another pathway to UK that is through Inti Nilai, I had to spend one year there and another year in one of Inti partners in UK. I wasn’t that interested. But I did look through the partners and there was one that kinda caught our eye. And it so happened that during my exam week, this particular uni that we considered with Inti Nilai came to the British Council for the clearing, and on that particular day I had no papers on, so I went and I got in with partial bursary. I was still a bit unsure cos I already had an offer from an Aussie uni which I was eyeing for. Everyone told me to go for UK (my parents like UK), so I just went for it. I applied the visa myself, no help from Inti at all. Coming here was such a rush. I guess I'm used to that since I always leave everything to the last minute. I don’t regret coming here. I chose this path and I will go through it. I'm grateful for this opportunity which has thought me a lot on being independent. I just need to blow off steam along the way. Well, I’ve learned a few things from my rather bumpy journey here:
>Life does NOT always go as plan
>Things always happen last minute
>Just GO for it
>Have faith in God that things will workout
and…………….. *drum roll*……………………
Life is always full of crap!!!!
>>> Over and out